My 101 Post...

Yay, a pat on my back for meself.

It's 12 noon. Which I have 1 more hour b4 I can get the bloody hell out of this office on a bloody Saturday.

It's one of those days again where I am feeling totally down and out ... don't know if its the hormons or something else , my guess is its something else ... haven't spoken to J for quite sometime now ... did get a glimpse of her the other day while I purposely drove past her house... while I tell myself the best thing to do is move on and forgeteverything that I have for her that has grown over the year; there is this part of me that does not want to give up hope.

There is a part of me that wants her to be happy and find that one that will give her happiness there and then there is that selfish side of me that wants her to come back and be with me for eternity(thou like i said its highly impossible) but one can still hope right?

What's worst is I coudn't not get hold of her over the phone for some reason, I kept getting this short beep tones ; which could be due to network failure ...not sure on that though; sighhhhhhhh *frowns*

Hope whatever I am feeling right now fades away fast , it's starting to take a toll on me....

Am I just being selfish or just being hard-necked?